I Have No Motivation
<div class="IPBDescription">:(</div> So i skipped 3 classes today and i was thinking... why cant i be like other people? Why cant i feel normal when it comes to work and school? I've seeked help, counceling, i went through it all but it changed nothing. I dropped College football, hoping that maybe with extra time i would find time for homework, but my grades did not change. I am sitting pretty with a sub 2.0 GPA in college, and i feel i am going to fail one of my hardest classes. I cant drop it, i didn't even know i was doing bad in the class till last week. Apparently, my teacher took it upon herself to make articles due every week... then somehow managed to collect them from the entire class without me noticing every week. Now... with 6 articles not done (cant make them up) and only a few weeks ahead left of school... i fear i may not make it through college. A crying shame is it not? Thousands are stuck with sub-par jobs and cant afford to feed themselves, but i cant pass college... frekin college for christ's sake. If i dont make it through here, i dont know what i would do with my life.
But even with all of this happening around me... i somehow resisted slipping into depression. It happened my first year here... Computer science, the one thing i always wanted to do... and i was just oblivious as to how to start. I payed attention in class... i read the chapters over and over and over... but i couldn't learn... I COULDN'T LEARN!!!! It was impossible... it almost brought me to tears as i listened to the teacher lecture about things i couldn't grasp or understand. I sought help, i went to supplimental instructions for CS... but to no avail. I looked at my book one day, and realised i was reading a chapter that was 4 chapters behind the class... but i still didn't know how to do it. Hours spent reading and typing, just wasted effort, so i gave up and decided to go into telecommunications. I always enjoyed setting up LANs, and when my uncle built a house, i did the wireing. i found it enjoyable... so my next year, this year... was my first semester of telecommunications. All my other classes went great. Heck, i'm getting an A in Quality Concepts, a hopeful B in intro to telephony, B or higher in psych, and a B in economics... But network fundamentals... the core of my major, i am failing once more. Maybe my problem is psychological in nature. Or maybe it was just blind luck that i got THIS screwed over in that class.
I would say that if anything caused this all to happen, motivation would be the key ingrediant. I dont have any... The only time i am happy is when i am not doing anything. Why is it that my goal in life is to get enough money to retire asap? Well you dont know, i have to find out myself.
But even with all of this happening around me... i somehow resisted slipping into depression. It happened my first year here... Computer science, the one thing i always wanted to do... and i was just oblivious as to how to start. I payed attention in class... i read the chapters over and over and over... but i couldn't learn... I COULDN'T LEARN!!!! It was impossible... it almost brought me to tears as i listened to the teacher lecture about things i couldn't grasp or understand. I sought help, i went to supplimental instructions for CS... but to no avail. I looked at my book one day, and realised i was reading a chapter that was 4 chapters behind the class... but i still didn't know how to do it. Hours spent reading and typing, just wasted effort, so i gave up and decided to go into telecommunications. I always enjoyed setting up LANs, and when my uncle built a house, i did the wireing. i found it enjoyable... so my next year, this year... was my first semester of telecommunications. All my other classes went great. Heck, i'm getting an A in Quality Concepts, a hopeful B in intro to telephony, B or higher in psych, and a B in economics... But network fundamentals... the core of my major, i am failing once more. Maybe my problem is psychological in nature. Or maybe it was just blind luck that i got THIS screwed over in that class.
I would say that if anything caused this all to happen, motivation would be the key ingrediant. I dont have any... The only time i am happy is when i am not doing anything. Why is it that my goal in life is to get enough money to retire asap? Well you dont know, i have to find out myself.
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Heck, Monday I slept from 2 to 6. Because I didn't want to go to classes.
But cheer up. Get a degree in something that entertains you (like History, English, that stuff) and then MINOR in the actual business applicable stuff.
Don't let this happen to you. Seriously. Realize that these consiquences are real. And that they suck. HARD. A year is a DAMN long time.
You know that nike slogan? Just do it. Get off your ****, and just do it.
[also, i doubt posting on forums and playing video games are going to help your motivation. I know they absolutely murdered mine.]
But they are useful for stress relief Frikk. I know getting 100+ kills in my apache really gets me ready to suffer for a couple hours.
Trev, if you don't enjoy the major/classes, switch. Go for a major that you actually enjoy. and can pay attention to.
quit smoking. I swear to god it isnt helping you.
Yeah, it will only get worse before it gets better. But don't quit. Everybody I talk to goes through this damnable stage. Even if all your doing is getting a stupid peice of paper, that peice of paper is what most employers like to see. Trust me, grades are nice, but they are not "that" important when it comes to a job.
About the only thing I enjoy in college is taking the classes that relate to my field (Geographical and Information Systems). I still have no idea how I made it this far, but Im still going!!
Just don't quit. thats the most important thing.
I started out all those years ago as a Computer Engineering student, and then I realized that I SUCK AT PROGRAMMING so I decided to go with the hardware side of it and go into Electrical and Computer Engineering, but then I realized that I could keep the 3.2GPA that was required to stay in the major, so last year I switched again, something close to engineering but with the standard 2.0GPA that is easier to have. Geographical and Information Systems, using programs like ArcGIS to take hard data and a visual map and figure out things like where to put a shopping center, or the flood zones along a river, or other things like that. Its actually a very broad field so that means alot of jobs out there for somebody with this degree.
yeah, I'm in my fifth year... in all my years of college, I've probably handed in about 25% of my papers on time... it's a nightmare. I commute, too. it's just so easy to get comfortable, and there's no concrete consequences to not doing well... so it's hard to grasp how bad grades are gonna screw us over in the long run...
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Weed has lowered my motivation to. But mainly because of the social aspects surronding it. If I just smoke alone, or with people I KNOW will smoke me back up, I can be happy.
yeah, I'm in my fifth year... in all my years of college, I've probably handed in about 25% of my papers on time... it's a nightmare. I commute, too. it's just so easy to get comfortable, and there's no concrete consequences to not doing well... so it's hard to grasp how bad grades are gonna screw us over in the long run... <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><span class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
First, sorry for the triple post people, but this topic is something I thought about starting myself.
I to, am happy that more people than just myself are in this kind of situation.
I know how you all feel.
I keep getting bad results, no mather how much I learn, when I have a good feeling about a test I just made, I end up getting a bad result. Last year I was way better. I don't know, maybe it's my computer addiction, I really should make more homework. But I can't, I'm not motivated. <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo--> *snif*
I don't smoke, and I only drink on the weekends,
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but the thing that I think is what makes me this way is I have a little bit of a social-phobia problem (which Im trying to get help with) and I don't want to go anywhere unless I have to (to turn in homework and do labs and take tests). I tend to stay in the apartment alot just to avoid people. It might be because I go to the second largest university (population wise) in the USA, and I come from a farm of 4 people and the closet village had 100 people and no post office.
Here is the deal, if you are thinking about droping out/taking time off
HAVE A FRIKKEN PLAN!!!
I am currently living in the college town (b/c all my friends are still here, naimly my GF) and Iam working at an icecream shop for minimum wage (barely paying my bills)
However starting next semster I will hopefuly be working for capous dinning service (CDS), and I will be starting classes for EMT training.
If I get the job I will be payed about $12 an hr and working 20 hrs a week (thus leaving me alike $300 or so each month for spare $$, thats after food and all bills).
So yah, I sorta have a plan, just make sure you have one also.
It's good to know you're doing better in the IT course. Hope it works out for you. Dont' give up, dude. <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif'><!--endemo-->
Burr, it's good to know of another Geography major. Haha.
It's kind of funny to know that I have teh skill and I was doing ?ber good until I was 15 or so. Then, gradually, I just stopped doing my homeworks so often. I didn't care. Luckily I still do fairly well in tests, but I know I could be easily doing better. And yet I can't find the motivation I used to have. Well, meh. I guess it get's all better after I get out of secondary school/sixth form college and in to uni. I just have to hold out this semester and I'm all fine.
Then, matriculation exams, I know I'll do pretty good in English and Finnish, German and Math are something that I don't care about much and then, the hardest part being 'general knowledge examination'. Physics, Biology and Chemistry <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif'><!--endemo--> *shruggs*
I was only 18 att and I didn't want to be there, I didn't like what I was doing and I dropped out. Now I am 21 and I am trying to get back, and I have found, i'm a lazzy ****! who doesn't want to give any effort at all.
Example:
I haven't been to the gym in 3 months (what a waste of 300 bucks)
I have not been driving with insurance because it will cost me 8000 bucks for the year.
I said I would sell my car 4 months ago... Still driving it.
I need to get back into school for business.... I am still trying to get better at math.
I am finding I am stressed out alot and its my own fault! I have **** up my life and I have to fix it! You know I could be making 50k a year as a sales rep right now, but noooooo, I had to be a **** and not go back to school.
I am feeling bad about my self and my GF isn't helping me much. All she does is make me worry!
I don't know what I am going to do with my life either! <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo-->
Not me. I feel good among all these college dropouts <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->
o_O
I mean...errr...I feel your pain.
Whew, nice save Dread. What a bunch of pathetic losers. I mean really they...this still on? Awww sh...
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Edit: And in case someone has a stake violently inserted in their anus, the last line, I'm only joking. Damn I hate these politically correct times.
Heck, i'm enjoying college. I'm just losing motivation for certain classes (namely the one class with my Ex in it).
As for the rest of you...man do I feel depressed now.
I did something similar last year - I uninstalled all the games on my comp and spent all my free time at the university library. After about a week I didn't miss the computer as much and I felt a great sense of accomplishment since all that extra time, over just a single week, got me back my confidence in my studies. It's **** getting started, but the honest truth is that feeling bad doing nothing about it is worse than turning yourself into a work robot for a few hours at a time for a couple of days.
I hope you can find that light at the end of the tunnel - good luck!
This is my fourth year at UNBC, majoring in comp sci. Between surfing the internet, games and just staring off into space, I've been having troubles getting motivated.
I've always liked doing stuff that I'm good at. I like aiming for A+'s and what not. But even when I don't do so well, I try to chug it out and move on. This has always worked for me. The problem is, after chugging along for so long in cpsc I'm getting tired of it. The winter semester of last year was my worst. I just wanted to beat my head against a wall. I'm doing better this year though, mostly due to a reduced workload. (On the other hand, I'm taking "operating systems"... the infamous Nachos course and unlike my "intro to compiler design" course last year, it's a team project, and I work better and harder in a team, simply because I hate being the "weakest link" in a group.)
Still, I'm feeling the stress. And I need to relieve it sometimes. I don't drink or smoke, so no relaxation from there. (Hell I never take tylenol's when I have a headache or anything of that nature.) I game it up to relieve stress. But I have to restrain myself so as to not let it take over my life, like it has the last couple of years. (I have the short cut to NS point to Crimson Editor...) Being social helps alot too. Game it up with friends. Make sure when you play your game you are having fun doing it. If you aren't having fun, you'll just make things worse.
If you do feel you need to get away from your homework, the best thing I've found is to do something constructive. I'll load up Hammer and work a bit on my NS map. Get yourself into creative mode. A former roommate of mine would just start writing short stories. Whatever.
And I can't stress enough how important excercise and sleep are. Due to deadlines, I've been lacking in both, and I can feel it. You don't need to go to the gym to get excercise. I'll go for a walk now and then. Don't try to start convincing yourself to do it. Just do it. You can never convince the lazy side of you. You have to ignore it.
I don't smoke, and I only drink on the weekends,
<---Self Proclaimed Weekend Alcoholic <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->
but the thing that I think is what makes me this way is I have a little bit of a social-phobia problem (which Im trying to get help with) and I don't want to go anywhere unless I have to (to turn in homework and do labs and take tests). I tend to stay in the apartment alot just to avoid people. It might be because I go to the second largest university (population wise) in the USA, and I come from a farm of 4 people and the closet village had 100 people and no post office. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><span class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Holy crap.
Which University is that, if I may ask? I'm too lazy to google for it =)
I to tend to avoid people.
Not me. I feel good among all these college dropouts <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->
o_O
I mean...errr...I feel your pain.
Whew, nice save Dread. What a bunch of pathetic losers. I mean really they...this still on? Awww sh...
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Edit: And in case someone has a stake violently inserted in their anus, the last line, I'm only joking. Damn I hate these politically correct times. <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><span class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Oh, I know, just don't call me a dirty rightest *cough smoke :-p*
By the way, Bait, I hear ya, man do some classes just suck. Thats why I hate going to a "liberal arts" university. I just want to learn my crap and get out of here.
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The Ohio State University
They are required for the morons who signed up for the course because they just wanted to get rich fast despite not having any clue as to what the term "networking" implies. These people will be your future co-workers, the ones who get paid more than you and know less then you, the people who fill out e-mail surveys during work hours, the people who ask you to fix the problems they created and take the credit for your work.
The phsycology class is to help you understand that these people <b>will</b> be your future co-workers, they <b>are</b> stupid, and that unfortunatly those two facts still do not give you the right to throttle the life out of them after they refer to you as "the computer nerd guy" for the 15th time to a customer.
Yes, I'm having a bad day.