The Sh** Just Keeps Piling Up...
DOOManiac
Worst. Critic. Ever. Join Date: 2002-04-17 Member: 462Members, NS1 Playtester
Worst. Critic. Ever. Join Date: 2002-04-17 Member: 462Members, NS1 Playtester
Ugh. Things just seem to be getting worse and worse by the hour lately.
I just got my Statistics test back, made a 61% and that's actually above what I was expecting. Still there's no way I can pass the class and its required before I can take any more classes. Its my third time taking it and frankly I don't want to take it a fourth time. I don't want to drop out of college, but I can't really justify throwing all of my money away either when I know I'm just too stupid to understand this bull****.
I found out that my job isn't planning on letting me increase my hours per week (right now I work 20), so I can't even work fulltime, and you can't get a fulltime programming job w/o a degree or less than a year of experience. But I like it at this place, but hell I need more money...
Speaking of money, I'm not going to have any anymore. I don't even know if I'll be able to afford food. I'm supposed to get an apartment in a month and a half with a friend of mine, and while at the time I thought I would have the cash now that its coming down to the wire I'm not so sure. Right now my mom is paying for some of the rent since I'm in college, but if I drop out then I'm completely on my own, and I know that without a full-time job I won't be able to pay for everything.
My friend finally got a girlfriend and while he won't admit it he's definately head over heels for this chick, and from what I hear she's a nice girl. Don't get me wrong, I'm definately happy for him. But we're supposed be getting this apartment and I know him, I know his family. Its gonna be like 6 months from now and he's gonna want to get married and then I'm screwed because I won't be able to afford to live anywhere by myself.
And I keep having these thoughts pop into my head. Horrible stuff that is so bad I can't even mention it. I mean it freaks me out whenever I have something like that pop into my head, and my worst fear is that I might actually do some of it.
My current roomate continues to be a pest. He was gone for all spring break and I got the place cleaned up and within 2 days of him being back its trashed again. The worst part I'm pretty sure he's bisexual. Now that wouldn't bother me because people can do whatever, but he keeps doing wierd crap to freak me out like giggling as if he were a Japanese school girl (I **** you not he does this on purpose) and the like. The other day he was just standing at my door (which I keep closed 90% of the time) and was just pawing the door with his hands repeatedly. He keeps getting worse about this kind of **** by the day, and I don't know if I can stand this another month...
For those of you wondering, yes I have gotten some help before. I went for about 2 years but this semester I felt I'd be okay to stop. I'm still in an immensly better mental state because of it, but I never really got any of my problems fixed, just learned to cope with them better so that I could actually be happy from time to time.
I'm actually not feeling suicidal so don't worry about me offing myself. I'm just really really stressed out right now (moreso than usual). I swear I'm gonna have a heart attack by the time I'm 27. I keep having these daydreams of just packing up and leaving, just disappearing somewhere. Taking all my cash out of the bank at the ATM and just driving in a direction and ending up as a bum or something. I just wish I could start over. I just keep feeling as if I'm gonna this massive mental breakdown soon...
I had all these plans for my life and I haven't gotten any of them accomplished. I wanted to graduate from college, but so far that looks to be an impossibility. I wanted to get a job in game design, but you can't get one anymore w/o a college degree or like some outstandingly successful mod, of which I doubt I'll ever have either. I wanted to someday get married and have a family, but as I'm sure a lot of you guys are I'm completely inept around the ladies, but also the vast majority of them just irritate the **** out of me so I wouldn't even want to be with them.
I'm agnostic so I don't really have any faith to use as a crutch. If there is a god I'm quite sure he has always ignored me. Or perhaps he just right out hates me. He seems to listen to others though, so maybe some of you religious types could pray for me if you think it'll do any good.
So yeah, I just had to rant somewhere and I figured maybe some of you guys would post something supportive that might make me feel better or at least give me a new way to look at it. Thanks for hearing me out.
And now the customary 4 line scream:
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I just got my Statistics test back, made a 61% and that's actually above what I was expecting. Still there's no way I can pass the class and its required before I can take any more classes. Its my third time taking it and frankly I don't want to take it a fourth time. I don't want to drop out of college, but I can't really justify throwing all of my money away either when I know I'm just too stupid to understand this bull****.
I found out that my job isn't planning on letting me increase my hours per week (right now I work 20), so I can't even work fulltime, and you can't get a fulltime programming job w/o a degree or less than a year of experience. But I like it at this place, but hell I need more money...
Speaking of money, I'm not going to have any anymore. I don't even know if I'll be able to afford food. I'm supposed to get an apartment in a month and a half with a friend of mine, and while at the time I thought I would have the cash now that its coming down to the wire I'm not so sure. Right now my mom is paying for some of the rent since I'm in college, but if I drop out then I'm completely on my own, and I know that without a full-time job I won't be able to pay for everything.
My friend finally got a girlfriend and while he won't admit it he's definately head over heels for this chick, and from what I hear she's a nice girl. Don't get me wrong, I'm definately happy for him. But we're supposed be getting this apartment and I know him, I know his family. Its gonna be like 6 months from now and he's gonna want to get married and then I'm screwed because I won't be able to afford to live anywhere by myself.
And I keep having these thoughts pop into my head. Horrible stuff that is so bad I can't even mention it. I mean it freaks me out whenever I have something like that pop into my head, and my worst fear is that I might actually do some of it.
My current roomate continues to be a pest. He was gone for all spring break and I got the place cleaned up and within 2 days of him being back its trashed again. The worst part I'm pretty sure he's bisexual. Now that wouldn't bother me because people can do whatever, but he keeps doing wierd crap to freak me out like giggling as if he were a Japanese school girl (I **** you not he does this on purpose) and the like. The other day he was just standing at my door (which I keep closed 90% of the time) and was just pawing the door with his hands repeatedly. He keeps getting worse about this kind of **** by the day, and I don't know if I can stand this another month...
For those of you wondering, yes I have gotten some help before. I went for about 2 years but this semester I felt I'd be okay to stop. I'm still in an immensly better mental state because of it, but I never really got any of my problems fixed, just learned to cope with them better so that I could actually be happy from time to time.
I'm actually not feeling suicidal so don't worry about me offing myself. I'm just really really stressed out right now (moreso than usual). I swear I'm gonna have a heart attack by the time I'm 27. I keep having these daydreams of just packing up and leaving, just disappearing somewhere. Taking all my cash out of the bank at the ATM and just driving in a direction and ending up as a bum or something. I just wish I could start over. I just keep feeling as if I'm gonna this massive mental breakdown soon...
I had all these plans for my life and I haven't gotten any of them accomplished. I wanted to graduate from college, but so far that looks to be an impossibility. I wanted to get a job in game design, but you can't get one anymore w/o a college degree or like some outstandingly successful mod, of which I doubt I'll ever have either. I wanted to someday get married and have a family, but as I'm sure a lot of you guys are I'm completely inept around the ladies, but also the vast majority of them just irritate the **** out of me so I wouldn't even want to be with them.
I'm agnostic so I don't really have any faith to use as a crutch. If there is a god I'm quite sure he has always ignored me. Or perhaps he just right out hates me. He seems to listen to others though, so maybe some of you religious types could pray for me if you think it'll do any good.
So yeah, I just had to rant somewhere and I figured maybe some of you guys would post something supportive that might make me feel better or at least give me a new way to look at it. Thanks for hearing me out.
And now the customary 4 line scream:
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Comments
Good luck <!--emo&:0--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wow.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wow.gif' /><!--endemo-->
I really hope things pick up for you. I'm assuming you are not on good terms with your folks? Othewise I would say move back home. The statistics calss is a bummer, find out if your Professor will give you a mercy passing grade (D or is it C now days?) tell him you are going to off yourself and you need some good news. Ask if you can do extra credit or something, and if that fails offer up your bi-sexual room mate.
What part of the country are you in?
I just found out (I was told in passing even) that the charity I work for doesn't have funding to keep me for the 12-month contract I thought I had, and that I have to go at the end of six months, which would be the middle of next month. They've known since <i>December</i>. On top of which, I somehow this week need to work 2 hours overtime before the normal working day, and 2 hours overtime after the normal working day, <i>every day</i> to be allowed to take the extra day off I need for my honeymoon.
Meanwhile, I just negotiated a switch in my role there that'll give me the design experience I need to even remotely stand a chance in that field, but now obviously I only get about a month's worth of said experience, which is pretty much useless to me. Also, the bosses don't want me doing any less of the awesome work I'm already doing, and pretty much want me to squeeze eight days' work into a week. On minimum wage, with no paid overtime.
And yet I like the place I work too much to say "no" to any of it, so I'll just go ahead and suffer til they have to let me go, even though they say they're trying to find extra funding (though in all honesty they'll probably just recruit a graduate volunteer to take my place on the Graduate Program <i>I turned into a success</i>).
Feh.
(edit: Also, Doom's story sounds pretty much like my Uni experiences. Not sure what help I can suggest really, other than doing your best to keep going. I didn't and I regret it an awful lot. Even a crappy degree is better than nothing at all.)
I won't tell you what you need to do or should do to work on or fix your life, because I really don't know, and it wouldn't be my place if I did. All I can suggest is that you just take a deep breath and tackle one thing at a time. Worry about your friend getting married when and if the time comes, hop on IRC some time and ask around for some Stats support, or find some tutors around school.
As little comfort as it may be, the whole community's here for you Doomeh. My AIM Handle's Legionnaired if you need to let of some steam or whatever, and Pjofsky's always there for a good smackdown <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->.
Hang in there.
you know, I think we need to find god and lynch it. Then get a better one.
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yah, I already droped outa college and I can only pay my bills b/c my parents have given me what I realy wanted for XMass ($$ so I can pay my bills), thats about gone, but in a week and 1/2 its my bday, and I already can guess what I am getting for presants).
My GF (of 3 years) and I are sorta seperated atm (and I wont even get to see her next week cus of spring break, but after that she thinks she will know what she wants).
My job sucks.
And I am studying to be an EMT, and I don't know if I will be able to get a drivers licence by the time I need it to take the national registry... (do you know how friken hard it is to find driving instruction in the middle of nowhere if you don't have a car......)
Gona move back to NYC to live with my mom at the end of this semseter.
DOOM, I don't know what your situation is like, but you mightr wana talk to your parents about your problems. I don't know your parents so I am just going by the fact that I have never seen you go off on them.
Talk to them, see how things stand with them.
Possibly take a year off to rethink your life (I know alot of people who took that year off and were able to go back to school after that).
Oh, and no matter what, DOOM, you aint stupid. I have seen some of the work you have done. And you know what? Math just kicks certain people in the Groin,I am one of them, that was my stumbling block also.
The largest piece of advice, and ifact the only one in my entire post that is honestly good is this:
Keep a plan.
If you drop out/take a year off/whatever, make sure you have a plan to either continue your education (even if it is just a vocatiol school or something), or a strong way of getting a job.
I have also watched alot of people 'take a year off' and then just never do anytihng again....
What ever you do do, Remember that we are all here for you mate.
in the mid terms i failed both my maths and dymanics (maths with masses basicly), but passed overall, just. to top that my girlfriend left me the day after we got back after christmas break for pretty much no reason at all, which was harsh.
so basicly for the past 2 months ive felt like ****, i would have changed course if there was something else i wanted to do (there isnt), i would go home if i could bare with living there again (i love my family, i just cant live with them). and since i dont actuall know what i wnat to do, im kind of stuck till i think of a plan.
and now my so called friends have started ignoring me because i had the first serious argument ive had in years with one of them.
<!--QuoteBegin--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> </td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->I'm actually not feeling suicidal so don't worry about me offing myself. I'm just really really stressed out right now (moreso than usual). I swear I'm gonna have a heart attack by the time I'm 27. I keep having these daydreams of just packing up and leaving, just disappearing somewhere. Taking all my cash out of the bank at the ATM and just driving in a direction and ending up as a bum or something. I just wish I could start over. I just keep feeling as if I'm gonna this massive mental breakdown soon...
<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> you and me both buddy...
heres what i think might help slightly: people like your room mate - just think **** him, tell that hes **** you off and if he doesnt stop your gonna kick his sorry ****,
your next room mate/friend/person who mught leave you in the **** for a girl - tell him that your worried about this and get some assurances from him, anything is better than nothing.
the maths thing. hmm. if you come up with any ideas, tell me <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo-->, only thing i can suggest is get some help from someone who knows WTH its about
the best thing for the stress is to just go out whenever you feel like its on top of you, go out with friends to a bar, listen to some heavy music and freak out every so often (the whole primal scream therapy works quite well some times. plus it will scare your room mate <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo--> ) whatever works for you
looking at it as a challange might help, one that you have to overcome at all costs. or something :/
not very good advice i know, but its all i got. good luck soldier <!--emo&::asrifle::--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/asrifle.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='asrifle.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Seriously though,writing is a good way to blow off steam.
Good Luck. (I'm thinking good thoughts for you!)
About this stats test...
I'm not going to suggest you study harder, because saying "study harder" is something for parents to say that haven't been to Uni for 30 years.
You've just gotta take a deep breath and knuckle down and keep at it. Don't worry about failing it. You'll pass it. I failed MATH1052 last semester and tried to do the sequel to it, MATH2000. I found it far too difficult and I was wallowing in depression for a while, caught a throat infection due to stress and laid in bed for a few days thinking. I felt <b>exactly</b> the same as you described above: "I'm just too stupid to understand this bull****.". In the end I decided to drop it and repeat MATH1052 this semester and do 2000 later.
I can tell you I felt like s**t for a few days then. Really terrible. But I'm OK now.
You're feeling really terrible right now. And you tend to see the worst in everything at this time. Just wait a few days and look at it in a fresh perspective and think.
Maybe you should consider endeavouring to find a ladyfriend? I've got no idea how. My GF and I's first date was the high-school prom and we've been together since. Maybe go to some nightclubs or something? I'm completely out of my depth... <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Anyhoo my point is that having a gf is like having a mental holiday all the time. Nothing seems as serious when you know you've got someone to snuggle with and talk to.
Maybe consider finding a new roommate? Still... better the devil you know.
Maybe consider talking to your lecturers?
I really hope you can pull though Doom. I genuinely hope. You?ve got my ICQ number if ever you want to talk.
--Scythe--
<!--QuoteBegin-big jim+--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (big jim)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->i would go home if i could bare with living there again (i love my family, i just cant live with them). and since i dont actuall know what i wnat to do, im kind of stuck till i think of a plan.<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
<!--QuoteBegin-Thansal+--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Thansal)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->DOOM, I don't know what your situation is like, but you mightr wana talk to your parents about your problems. I don't know your parents so I am just going by the fact that I have never seen you go off on them.
Talk to them, see how things stand with them.
Possibly take a year off to rethink your life (I know alot of people who took that year off and were able to go back to school after that).<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
I love my parents, but they drive me freakin nuts. Its just that my mom always gets really bitchy about money as she feels thats the absolute most important thing in life, more than anything else.
Everyone I know who took a year off never went back. And considering that I don't want to be there at all I'm certain I'd do the same.
<!--QuoteBegin-big jim+--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (big jim)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->your next room mate/friend/person who mught leave you in the **** for a girl - tell him that your worried about this and get some assurances from him, anything is better than nothing.<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
I have brought this up, but he keeps dismissing me as nuts and promises he won't do anything. But 3 minutes later he's moping on how he misses her (one whole day without her) and how it was great getting to see her every day last week due to a camping trip and etc. And I know his family. Getting married at a young age and starting to pop out babies is part of their value system. His parents did it, his brother did it and they're all encouraging it. I'm the only one telling him *NOT* to do it (besides himself). Yes his family is nuts btw.
<!--QuoteBegin-big jim+--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (big jim)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->heres what i think might help slightly: people like your room mate - just think **** him, tell that hes **** you off and if he doesnt stop your gonna kick his sorry ****,<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Therein the problem lies: I'm physically inferior and even the threat of something strong than a bruise is a laughable idea, so if I were to go this route I'd have to skip "kick your arse" mode and move right on up to "stab you with a god damn knife" mode, the threat of which would break down any social relationship to say the least, not to mention if he presses charges. Or if I end up stabbing him with a knife...
<!--QuoteBegin-Scythe+--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Scythe)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->Maybe you should consider endeavouring to find a ladyfriend? I've got no idea how. My GF and I's first date was the high-school prom and we've been together since. Maybe go to some nightclubs or something? I'm completely out of my depth... <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
I've all but given up on women. I've come to accept that I'll die either a virgin or a rapist. My problem is, like I said before, going to nightclubs or etc. would instantly be out for me because I wouldn't be caught dead in a place like that, and I know that any relationship between me and a chick who I would meet there wouldn't work out because we just wouldn't be a good match. Meh. My friend has mentioned his girlfriend's best friend friend but I really don't know anything about her. Plus if things got crappy between us it might hurt the relationship between him and his girlfriend (who are practically welded together), and that is the absolute last thing on earth I wanna do.
And as far as the statistics goes.. This will be the third year I've struggled with this. Add onto that the 3 times I had to take Calculus I just to pass it, and you've got freaking 3 years of my life I've just completely wasted due to this math bull****, with no end in sight. I'm not any better at understanding Statistics than I was two years ago when I took it the first time.
The schools math department sucks, their tutors didn't even know Calculus I stuff so I'm sure they don't know Statistics. And I don't study well in groups so a study group is kind of out of the question.
My problem is I think I understand it all,I do the homework and get most of it right, but come test time I just don't get the right answers despite me thinking I'm doing it correctly...
Meh :/
Good luck man.
it's fully possible that he was trying to give you hints before and had to be more obvious to be noticed. do you remember anything slightly fishy before the whole blatant-come-on thing?
girls and alcohol are good for this, but the **** you get from some girls can outweigh the benefits sometimes. so stick with the alcohol <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo-->
is there a friend who you can just talk to about anything with? if it wasnt a friend of mine in another university (who ive only met once, its a strange relationship) i would definatly given up by now. i owe her so much. someone like that will make you feel better.
about the strange roommate being bigger than you and the threatening ot working unless you go too far. you'd be amazed what a good 10 000 yard stone cold psychopathic killer stare can do for you. add in some random shouting to press the point <!--QuoteBegin--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> </td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->you wanna test me? YOU WANNA F****** TEST ME!!?!!?<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
got me out of more fights than i can remember. and most of them with huge guys.
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I've all but given up on women. I've come to accept that I'll die either a virgin or a rapist. My problem is, like I said before, going to nightclubs or etc. would instantly be out for me because I wouldn't be caught dead in a place like that, and I know that any relationship between me and a chick who I would meet there wouldn't work out because we just wouldn't be a good match.<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
are you sure your not the american version of me?
me+nightclubs=unhappy me
me+girls who like nightclubs= me laughing my arse off at those stupid....
try rock/metal/jazz whatever places, better music, better people, better girls
hell even S+M clubs are better than nightclubs IMO <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo-->
problems with maths, just like me. what level work are you doing? im not much good, but hey, if i can help with the calculas just ask man.
anyway, im sure it'll get better soon, it cant stay like this forever.
sorry about the double post but i dont know how to edit and insert a quote with the name tag etc :/
(calc 2 and chem)
As for the entire parents thing... yah I know
Its gona be hard living with my mom again. Specialy with everyone having moved out of the city (combine that with my mom's new place is in the arse end of nowhere). But it will be dirt cheap (I only have to pay cost, so I will be fine with any job I can find, just getting to said job will be the hard part).
And as for what to do in general?
Don't take anyones advice to heart (not even this ;P), if you think it might work for you, give it a shot. If you don't, well bugger it <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
What works for one person will not work for any one else nesesarily.
Currently I am a college drop out (this is sorta wierd as I come from a line of teachers/college profs. My entire family has teachers/profs through out). I am studying to become and EMT, and then hopefuly become a firefighter. I am also curently thinking about persuing my interests in being a Vet Tech ( I have basicaly worked as one before, and I am learning alot about General Life saving stuff, so it is starting to look like a possibility).
As for mooving back to NYC... Well I can hopefuly get a job working for a catoring company that my exGF used to work for. (work a couple days/nights a month, make a few hundred a job, and use the to suplement what ever craptastic job I can find <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->)
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2 things:
Jim, the code works like this:
{quote=name, time}stuff{/quote} (use [] instead os {})
and remember DOOM, you have most of a multi-thousand person large comunity routing for you <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
This "disappearing" is actually more possible than you'd think, and you can do it through your own hard-earned cash that went to Ye Olde Government. Continue your college education far enough to get the attention of a CIA or NSA recruiter and they will be <i>more than happy</i> to see you as a candidate willing to lose contact with all friends and family for 2 years or more -- it'll automatically increase the number of job openings you can take with them. You get all the benefits of a government job while maintaining a higher status than "a bum who got out of college and decided to start over."
[edit]This assumes you'd pass the background and psychological checks.[/edit]
i'm honestly not sure what to say to you which
won't sound like a cliche or forced answer.
But i honestly do hope things start to pick up
for you because I feel you deserve it.
You're always posting interesting topics, you're
not one of those people who'll post random crap
to up your post-count and I get the impression
that you've helped Natural-Selection immensely
in various ways since launch.
Now onto the part of your post which contains
things that have crossed my mind various times
for various reasons.
<!--QuoteBegin--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> </td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->I'm agnostic so I don't really have any faith to use as a crutch. If there is a god I'm quite sure he has always ignored me. Or perhaps he just right out hates me. He seems to listen to others though, so maybe some of you religious types could pray for me if you think it'll do any good.<!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
I've always hated it when people use refer to God as
their defence. Not in your case how-ever because i'm in the
same boat as you, being "neutral" on this kinda thing.
I'm not sure what to think when its comes to the "does
he really exist" question. (keep an open mind?)
But when people say "God loves a tryer".... thats what
I simply cannot stand. I never say it to their faces because
of fear of offending them, but there are so many of us
out there who have tried and tried to do the "right thing"
and be as nice to people as possible. And it gets us NO-WHERE.
I've always treated people as i'd expect them to treat me, but
it simply makes them think i'm a push-over. I get better results
out of people when i'm sarcastic to them. (And i'm VERY good
at being sarcastic, think Chandler from Friends sarcastic... thats me!)
God loves a tryer.... he has a very **** way of showing his approval!
Anyway.... there's my "rant" done.
Seriously Doomy, good luck, let me know if there's anything
I can do to help.
Im serious.
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Thats fine with me as long as Doomy doesn't get offended
and start yelling things about Charity <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Can I use PayPal ?
But, I keep going on. Its been almost a year now since my girlfriend of two years cheated on me and left me, but somehow I have learned to keep going. Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I just keep telling myself that someday it will get better, and that when it does it will be worth it because I earned it.
that is some of the best advice yet i think. well put burr.
oh and thanks Thansal <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo-->
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Quaunaut, wouldn't that end up in making DOOM even more stressful?
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This "disappearing" is actually more possible than you'd think, and you can do it through your own hard-earned cash that went to Ye Olde Government. Continue your college education far enough to get the attention of a CIA or NSA recruiter and they will be <i>more than happy</i> to see you as a candidate willing to lose contact with all friends and family for 2 years or more -- it'll automatically increase the number of job openings you can take with them. You get all the benefits of a government job while maintaining a higher status than "a bum who got out of college and decided to start over."
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Its easier than you think to pass both of thos. DOOM could pass them EASY. With how much random knowledge he's gotten from games too, they may even want him for...other, purposes in the CIA.
This "disappearing" is actually more possible than you'd think, and you can do it through your own hard-earned cash that went to Ye Olde Government. Continue your college education far enough to get the attention of a CIA or NSA recruiter and they will be <i>more than happy</i> to see you as a candidate willing to lose contact with all friends and family for 2 years or more -- it'll automatically increase the number of job openings you can take with them. You get all the benefits of a government job while maintaining a higher status than "a bum who got out of college and decided to start over."
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Its easier than you think to pass both of thos. DOOM could pass them EASY. With how much random knowledge he's gotten from games too, they may even want him for...other, purposes in the CIA. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
heh yea my buddy applied for the secret service.
After 6 months of background checks, physical fitness screening, polygrapgh tests were they ask you about EVERYTHING and i do mean EVERYTHING he had to go in front of a 19 person interview process all at once.
eep! <!--emo&:0--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wow.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wow.gif' /><!--endemo-->
my last job interview only had 3 people.
A sgt., a detective, and a public safety comisson representative.
I just got a "new" used car so i can get to my job 480 miles away plus more insurance costs and lets not forget my college bills.
yay I have no money either! <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Good thingy I have 5 room mates. We all got a house together to split the rent lol.
But hey I have the best home security you can get lol
boy would trying to burglarize/home invasion our house be a baaaad idea especialy since my 5 room mates happen to be police officers. <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
criminal = pwned
For some people, math just dosn't click. (or maybe its just me <!--emo&::nerdy::--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/nerd.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='nerd.gif' /><!--endemo--> )