Depression sucks ###. It is the worst thing in the world. I've been depressed recently about a bunch of complicated things going on in my life, I think I'm doing pretty well now. I haven't been suicidal, but I know how people can get to the point of feeling that way. I didn't feel like ending my life, but I felt like absolute #### and hopeless, but things are starting to clear up. Sometimes it requires other people stepping in to help bring somebody out of depression. I didn't start feeling better until I went on a week vacation to my grandparents house where I was around my family instead of in front of the computer most of the time. I'd been closing off to my parents because of a big decision I have to make soon about what school I'll be attending next year, my Junior year. I've been wanting to transfer to this other school because of many things, but mainly I'm bored as hell at my school and want more of a challenge, which this new school is supposed to provide. They also have a good band program, which I'm sure will be better than next year at the school I attended this year, because our band director resigned and a new guy will take his place. The new guy will be great, I'm sure, but the whole band adjusting to his different teaching methods and ruling dynamics will make for a rough year if we want to do good at state. The main problem I've been having, which is why I was depressed, is that I'm leaving my old school with a bunch of my friends I hang out with occasionally, to go to a tougher school, that I won't be used to at first, and I may struggle. Sometimes I want more of a challenge, and sometimes I'm scared that I might not be able to keep up with the kids who are used to the extra work, and the extra stress. Another problem is that my girlfriend goes there. I've made it a big point that I was not transferring to be with her. Transferring to be with her would not be good, becuase people change, relationships break up, and where would I be if we broke up a month into school and I was stuck in a school that was tougher, feeling abandoned or depressed from a breakup. This is one of the toughest decisions I've had to make my whole life, and I'm still not sure, but I took the addmission test this morning and think I did pretty well. I'm not depressed anymore, because I've talked with my parents about everything and they're behind me whether I switch or stay, so don't worry about me. I just have a lot of thinking to do in the next few days. I'm pretty sure, though, that if I make it in, by passing the test and them accepting me, then I'll go. I think I'm up to the challenge, and I'm used to change and being the 'new guy' because my dad is in the air force, and we move frequently. But I was stuck in a rutt since the last few months of school until a few weeks ago, and it was not fun.
Heh, sorry to take up your topic, Deadlocke. Hope all goes well with your brother. Just reach out to him, encourage him to meet new people, there are 6 billion of them out there in the world, each and every one different from the one who took his heart. I personally believe that there isn't just 'the one' out there for each person. There are many people who would make the perfect partner in a relationship out there, you just have to keep looking, keep hoping, and allow yourself to be healed by the relationships with the people who matter in your life, not harmed by the ones who have torn you down to bring themselves up. Tell him that if his best friend despises him now, that it was never meant to be, and if she can't forgive him for whatever, or that she can't realize how much his life is worth, then he should forget her.
[Edit] O my god, i didn't know i typed that much! [/Edit]
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Heh, sorry to take up your topic, Deadlocke. Hope all goes well with your brother. Just reach out to him, encourage him to meet new people, there are 6 billion of them out there in the world, each and every one different from the one who took his heart. I personally believe that there isn't just 'the one' out there for each person. There are many people who would make the perfect partner in a relationship out there, you just have to keep looking, keep hoping, and allow yourself to be healed by the relationships with the people who matter in your life, not harmed by the ones who have torn you down to bring themselves up. Tell him that if his best friend despises him now, that it was never meant to be, and if she can't forgive him for whatever, or that she can't realize how much his life is worth, then he should forget her.
[Edit] O my god, i didn't know i typed that much! [/Edit]