Bye
mephmage
Join Date: 2004-03-24 Member: 27514Banned
I've come to realize that my life means nothing, all my friends has abandoned me and none else really likes me anyway... I'd just want to say that this will be my last post on this forum, or any forum for that sake...
I'm tired of living like this.
And I wish to say good bye to you all who've been at least a little bit nice to me.
And Sid, especially you, I appreciate that you actually cared about me, good luck in the future!
Im sorry for being an idiot
Bye
-Alix
I'm tired of living like this.
And I wish to say good bye to you all who've been at least a little bit nice to me.
And Sid, especially you, I appreciate that you actually cared about me, good luck in the future!
Im sorry for being an idiot
Bye
-Alix
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ok, so i'm not the happiest person in the world, but i know that there is something to look forward to...
in my first year of college... i was depressed enough to decide that i should spend $12,000 laying in bed... like, i would go the first day of class, realize that it sucked, and never go back... and i still got charged for it...
so i figured after my first term, i've gotta change something... so i went to class, and sat behind this girl... JUST so i could smell her friggin hair... it was the most awsome scent in the world... it was lame, it was small, it was probably stalking, but it made me get out of bed, get active (at least walk to class) and got me through that term....
your not worthless, your life isn't pointless, your just looking at it at the wrong scale (geography term, think "zoom").
just reduct the scale (back up a bit from the image...) you make awsome concepts, you are nice (from what i know of you) and your just one sexy duders (yes, that's me with the binoculars *waves*)
that wasn't cool.
I feel the same way and personnaly I don't give a **** (about myself that is)
Felt like killing myself countless times and I still do, I'm on 50 MG of ZOLOFT anti-depressants daily and gonna have to double or triple the dosage.
I hate myself, I had a time I even cut myself as a way to feel better... and I still think very often about killing myself, my problem is how to do it painlessly and quickly.
Oh and man... I don't really know you but I hope you think over all the non-sense you're saying and... oh... almost forgot... <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo-->
who is that girl anyway? im new ......
Please stay. I liked every single one of your concepts, and in fact you inspired me to draw up some of mine again. And, as delerosa said, we DO like you, and we all want you to stay. I havent found any of your posts to be anywhere near idiotic, just look at general or suggestions, there's usually tonnes there, such as the "scorpian that hovars without flapping". You're not stupid. You're not an idiot. All you gotta do is back up the image (yes, delrosa again) and just hang in there.
I know this one post may not seem like much, but i spent a good 20 mins on it. Please don't go... <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
It's not just you, like I said I feel the same way about myself.
I can tell people like me as a friend, but no one likes me as more than such... different case, same feelings back when I had absolutely no friends.
Think alot about what you intend to do and say before you do it.
I really really, really, REALLY, hate myself both phisicly and psycologicly, and yet what keeps me going is that I have an opportunity to help and make other people happy.
I don't care that they don't adore me... I just like to see that I'm able to make someone happy... if your friends abandoned you, well then... you never had friends... Out of the supposed 10 "friends" I have only 2 to 3 are true friends...
What you need to do is tell who are your real friends.
If you don't tell them how you feel (which was what I used to do) there is no way you can seek any atention from anyone... you did well on posting here, basicly that's a cry for help... now keep in mind that we are people from all over the world. We can't be there for you, we can only help you from far away. <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Do the same with your parents, seek council, bring it all out. That's what you need.
Oh and keep in mind your mood can change (for better or for worse) from one day to another, so please, I beg you <b>be patient</b> no matter what your problems are.
Hope that helped at all <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
EDIT: Call me a geek, but her post almost made me cry when I saw someone else feels the same way I do.
I'm worried, I don't know weather to take her post seriously or as a simple cry for help.
I know where you feel... I'm a 6 time suicide attempter myself... each time somethign stupid saved me (latest was a .357... refused to fire 0o' till i dropped it and it blew a hole in the wall...)
I figured something out... even if we don't know what it is yet, there is a higher power that has something in mind for us. Don't take the easy way out and end life now. Make all those that get you down feel like complete fools as you battle your way to the top and SUCCEED!
Trust me, life isn't all bad (took a really nice girl to show me that... I can never repay her for what she did for me)
I hope u belief in something to happen afterwards, and whatever it is, I wish you good luck there <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
hope this makes sense.
Too true... America sucks ATM... and when we suck we tend to bring others down with us... *throws a gorge at George W. Bush*...
Poor gorge...
Anywho, I don't even believe in death or life after death or any of that. I am more of a re-incarnation type. Yes, there's heavan and all that, but, if desired, I believe a person can come back in another body, with all the memories of their past life locked away. This is partly because I believe myself a reincarnation (it's spooky how similar I am to a certain person that was before my time)... we look similar, think alike, everything... and then there's the fact that I know how songs I've never heard go (even many songs that are WAY before my time) ... just spooky... but yet reassuring that your life force never dies but rather takes on another form...
however... if you commit suicide you are damned to eternal hell... as, while taking the life of another is bad, taking your own life is worse, as it doesn't condem the body, mere container be it that, but it tortures the soul...
hope you change your mind and stay
Perhaps he doesn't believe in something like that. Don't spoil him with such a frightenign thesis <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
I think THAT is the kind of attitude that gets people down...
the way I see it anyway is it's not
Don't go because...
but more of a
Don't go but if you do please do this, this, this, yadda yadda yadda ect ect for me...
no offense meant dude, that's just how I personally take it, and I'm sure I'm not the only one
I think THAT is the kind of attitude that gets people down...
the way I see it anyway is it's not
Don't go because...
but more of a
Don't go but if you do please do this, this, this, yadda yadda yadda ect ect for me...
no offense meant dude, that's just how I personally take it, and I'm sure I'm not the only one <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
well sorry i was thinking that he would like for one day one of his concepts became a model i didnt mean any offense by it <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Seems every school semester ive gotta find something new to keep me going though, people can annoy me so much sometimes. But, like I said, learn some new things you might enjoy yourself more.
and boy who lost his wings, go **** off and quit making other people worse off than they are :/
I should know i live In Northern Ireland....
don't let you friends pull you down, you should consider them your enemies. anyone who i can't count on to help u when your down, u should totally ignore.
i'm sure that there are billions of people who have gone through what u have, not exact, but with the same results.
thats just my opinion, 0_o
stay strong man ^_^
~Andy
One thing That I have said numerous times before though..
This is a customization forum....
not a pow-wow. Sorry to see you go tho..
but mods plz..
Plz moderator, don't delete/edit
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For crying out loud.. it's an internet forum.
You're letting yourself down cuz of what some punk kid thinks of you half-way across the world?
Grow some balls.
Take your life in your hands.
People push you around? Push back twice as hard.
Suicide means you've lost. I'm sure you don't wanna be remembered as a loser.
Think we haven't all gone through some tough times?
I have. high school has been hell and back for 5 years. I got through it.
Now i've got 2 days left before i'm done with college. And it's been another 5 years to go through that... but 5 years of paradise.
Things can only get better once you've reached the bottom of the crapper.
Time to climb man.
Climb.
Climb. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
deep
One day you may be climbing to the top of the world, only to slide down a huge drop. But don't worry - the roller coaster will climb again. <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Sorry to see ya go. You and your concepts rocked.
-Sid <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
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he said that in your contest thread poll thingie that del made
5ive: awweh how sad. dont worry ^_^ .5 still <3's ya!
<- <3's everybody...except drake. but that's cause he's my little slut
yeah, i posted that in your thread. that's gotta mean something to ya, right? ^_^
and i dont even know who else supported or commented or anything of that nature, but for the record, know that you're not some ghost people can't see or choose to ignore. otherwise we wouldn't have dropped concepts for your contest thingie, remember? <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
anyways, you just arrived. get your butt back here. DO IT NOW OR ELSE DRAKE GETS THE <b>SPOON</b> <!--emo&:0--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wow.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wow.gif' /><!--endemo-->
edit: okay okay, everybody's gonna call me a **** for bringing this up, but meph....your postcount is 69....that's just awesome ^_^